and so it ends..

it was fun, but i need something real. thanks for the memories.

this weeks has been an emotional roller coaster

unfortunately, it ended low... really low.

i have to end this. i need something real.

i don't know if im just really lazy or apathetic.  i think its both, but more on the latter.   i still haven't seen the change im looking for. i guess it won't just come to me while sitting here and waiting.  i feel that nothing's changed. maybe a bit worse.

this might be the most boring birthday, ever.  hey, its just another day.

ive always fallen for the wrong men- selfish men, who knows how to get around stupid naive women like me.  

lately,  i find myself falling again for the wrong man. but this time - a selfless man.  but i know hes not for me. i am so thankful i got to meet him.  i wish i can spend more time with him, but i don't want take much of his time and spend much of his awesomeness.  others need him more.  

everytime i spend time with you, i feel like i want to be a better person. i wish i have more friends like you.  just weeks ago, i read this article, that if i want to change, i have to change myself and surround myself with better people. this weekend spent with you is just what i needed. 

i wont be surprised if a lot of your friends feel the same way, but im glad you call me friend.  thanks for sharing that moment with me in the rooftop.  i actually felt some guilt, but you really made me feel that I'm a trusted friend. :)

day 1

it the 2nd day of the year and its my day 1 in executing my RPM plan I drafted yesterday.

here's a sniplet of my action plan

1. Musts:
wake up at 6am/ no snooze
limit 1/2 cup of rice /day
exercise at least 4 time a week
2 liters of water daily
eat at least a serving of fruit a day
no juice/ soda/ iced tea


2. Minimum and Maximum Time
Im targeting to lose 5lbs by the end of January or 10lbs by the end of February.

3. Leverage
I haven't thought about this yet, but im sure ill have some ideas along the way :P

here's my progress so far:
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	W	Th	F	S	S
	2-Jan	3-Jan	4-Jan	5-Jan	6-Jan
wake up at 6am/ no snooze	✖
limit 1/2 cup of rice /day	✔
exercise at least 4 time a week	✔
2 liters of water daily	✔
eat at least a serving of fruit a day	✔
no juice/ soda/ iced tea	✔

=======================================================

i hope i can get half a point for not hitting the snooze button :p



Its now past 11pm and I'm hungy, and gulping the last 500ml of water I committed to drink .  This is hard for a person who can survive on just 2 cups of coffee  a day.

planning to change

I stumbled upon this Tony Robbins video a few days ago.  it immediately captured my attention,  as the first few minutes talks about was why new years resolutions don't work.  Tony Robbins is not a motivational speaker,  he's a mind hacker.

I was trying to figure out what happened to me a decade ago, when i just decided to commit to change myself and lose weight. After 10 years, the weight is coming back, and I don't know now to get my mind and body do what i know i need to do. i always have an excuse.

This is the reason why i love tony robbins. He practically explained to me what happened to me a decade ago when i made a decision to change my lifestyle and change my life.

Thanks to youtube again, i found his other video seminars s about creating "real" plan for making the change.  Its called RPM or Rapid Planning Method. Here are the steps or the 5 Cs:

Step 1: Capture
This is just list down all your ideas on your wants, aspiration and what you need to do. Its a brain dump and putting it somewhere so you'll aways remember.

Step 2: Create an RPM Plan

Questions:
1. What do I really want? - measurable results
2. Why do I want it?
3. What do I need to do?

This exercise made me realize the importance of my wants and needs and why am i doing the change.

Actions:
1. Resolve your musts
2. Set a minimum and maximum time
3. Leverage

In the capture list, probably only 20% are musts, the rests are shoulds.  This prioritizes what you will do. After you have done this,  you should set limits on the amount of effort you think you need to achieve your outcomes. Leverage is basically looking for ways on how you can achieve your goals faster.

Step 3: Commit and Schedule
Step 4: Complet and Achieve
Step 5: Celebrate


I've come up with my RPM and will start my action plan tomorrow. Here's to the new me! :D