toughest place to be

i love bbc documentaries.  you can often catch me watching science stuff, but tonight i stumbled upon a bbd series on the worlds toughest place to be. it features London professional labourers working on the same jobs but in third world conditions.

the episode on the bus driver touch me the most.  aside from featuring manila, i think the british bus driver really saw the hardships of filipinos and i can believe that he is really shaken to his core.

its a shame, but actually i can relate more to the british bus driver than to the local.  i guess I'm living first world in a third world country. i am not rich, but i have a good job.  i have experienced poverty and I'm so blessed to get out of it.

at first i was amused how this british driver was so shocked and bewildered seeing the traffic here. i actually think im a better driver than he is :p but what is sad, is that i can relate to him feeling bad about the jeepney driver.  i feel guilty for not doing anything to help my country. i guess since i grew up here, its somewhat normal to me. i feel so selfish. I'm so busy worrying about my petty first world problems.  

i dont know how to help. you will never see me give money to street children, not because i dont what to help, but im sure by giving them money, im just encouraging them to beg more.  i have volunteered and gave to charities that supports education.  i want to help more. but i just dont know how.   :/